Motherly Musings

It's been a beautiful morning so far!

I woke up early to feed, burp, and change Tochan. While the hubster was getting ready for the day, I made cinnamon French toast. We prayed together, ate together, laughed together, kissed each other, and then the love of my life said goodbye and left for school. I went back to the couch and snuggled with my baby.

With nearly 16 pounds of heaven nestled heavy and warm on my chest, it's hard to pluck up the motivation to get up and set him down so I can get things done while he sleeps. So I put the daily chores on the To-Do list a few hours later and enjoy this perfect moment with my son. But instead of falling back asleep, I plucked up my phone and went to Doctrine and Covenants section 25. It was just what I needed to read this morning.

This is the life. Being a stay-at-home mother is so challenging, but so, soooooo good.

I know I'll have to finish school eventually. There are many other things I want to do, people I want to see, places I want to go. But, for now, I'm content to just be the mama to thee most adorable babe on this planet. This is what I'm supposed to be doing now; it is what I was meant to do.

“Motherhood is not a hobby, it is a calling. You do not collect children because you find them cuter than stamps. It is not something to do if you can squeeze the time in. It is what God gave you time for."

-Rachel Jankovic

These past months with Grant have been so fulfilling. Of course there are the rough times, but then there are the many happy moments that bring so much joy.

I love the satisfaction I feel from soothing and calming Grant down until he can sleep.

I'm always so delighted when I make him bust up laughing with his huge grin.

I positively swoon when bats his long, full eyelashes and raises his eyebrows flirtatiously.

I adore the face he makes right when I take his food away. He arches his back, stretches his arms, shuts his eyes, and pouts his lower lip in a sleepy, comfortable way.

My heart melts when he holds tightly to my fingers and stares deeply into my eyes.

I feel so proud when he accomplishes something new, like grabbing everyone's hair, singing along with me, or sitting up by himself for 16.4 seconds.

If Grant got a penny for every kiss I've given him, he'd probably be a millionaire by now.

I thank Heavenly Father every day for having such a sweet little nubbins to hold and claim as my own. I'm so grateful to Him for letting me be the wife to such a thoughtful, gentle, fun husband who always lifts me up and helps me become a better person. He also is the best father to Grant! When Grant sees Jeff when he comes home, Jeff HAS to play with him right away or he starts crying! It's so sweet to see how much he loves his daddy!

It's hard for me to have a future ahead of me that seems so unsure and cloudy in numerous ways. I don't know when things will happen, where we'll be in the next few years, or what's in store for us. But, for the time being, I'll just have to take things one day at a time. And, I have the two loves of my life with me to keep me happy, now and forever! Knowing that is one of the greatest blessings and comforts of all.

*I started writing this a few weeks ago (January 20th), and decided I wanted to finish it and share it with you all. Have a wonderful day! Make it a great one!*